Am Back!

Landed here in the US of A, 3 weeks back. For the first time in the past 15 months, it is just me DH and Nikki in our home. We are on our own. It is nice in a way, but I do miss my mom. 3 loads of laundry (DH did not do laundry for the 1 month he was without us here), 7 packed bags waiting to be unloaded, handling Nikki completely on my own, cooking at least 2 meals a day, my hands are really full. I have been lurking around in all the mommy blogs, lot of exciting announcements happening (Congrats Poppin's mom, Moppet's mom, Lavs, Kodi's mom and Boo), new mommies, missed birthdays, there was a whole lot to catch up. It was fun reading all of your blogs. Thanks mnamma, it was your post that prompted me to write this update.

Big news from us(no no, not what you are thinking :-)) : Nikki started going to day care. It is 2.5 weeks now since he started and he is still crying, crying and crying. And refuses to eat anything there, he just starves and come home. Picked up cold there during the 2nd week and shuns food at home too. And guess where he is on the percentile chart?? He dropped out of it :-((((((. I simply am at a loss about how to feed this child. I feel miserable, incapable, inadequate,..., ... because my child is underweight. More about our eating struggles in the next post.

The trip was good and bad. ILs started quarreling from day 5, and it spoilt the entire mood of my vacation. I did not contact any of my friends, one friend contacted me knowing that I was here through one of my relatives. I do not want to delve into details, for I am trying to forget what happened. The relationship will not work. period. I do not know why they hate us so much. For now, I have decided to stop talking to them, it does not make sense and I am sure they do not wish to speak to me. You need efforts from 2 sides in order to make a relationship work. I can be at peace with myself, I did my best to make things work and if they are not taken in the right sense, I cannot help it.

One of the following 2 things should be true :

1. They are insane

OR

2. They are such greedy ego-maniacs who are incapable of love (not towards 3rd parties, even towards their own son, DIL and grandson).

Nikki and V(my cutest, sweetest niece whom I am meeting for the first time) & some retail therapy were the antidote to all these depressive things that were happening. It was so nice to see them both interact, Nikki calling V akka and she calling him Thambi, the duo would melt anybody's heart (as though one is not enough). I wish I could just package V into a suitcase and get her here.

Nikki's mottai function(he cried and cried and cried and cried till he couldn't cry anymore, I felt so bad for him) went on well with minor glitches(ILs sitting in the temple bad-mouthing me & our family, telling all nonsense to anyone who was willing to lend them their ears, I really wonder how I kept my calm).

Nikki got his first pair of pearlies during the trip and along with the mottai, he is looking utterly butterly cute. I will be home for the next 2 weeks, before I join my new job(oh yeah, more abt it later) and hopefully everything falls into routine by then.